Blog

Explore My News,
Thoughts & Inspiration

I am so desperate

God has completely wrecked me. He’s taken every ounce of my mind, my body, my soul and He’s utterly captivated every sense, every individual fiber in my 5’2 being. 

“I will lift these hands in faith.” 

Worshipping is my love language. Cooking in the kitchen blasting Brian Johnson, standing up in church praising with a congregation, laying in bed with subtle hues of Upperroom delicately escaping my headphones, or strutting up the Romanian streets to some NEEDTOBREATHE. 

I love singing, belting out notes, creating my own sound. Even if it doesn’t sound great to the human ear God still rejoices with every voice crack. 

I feel so connected to the Holy Spirit when I worship. I have a passion of taking songs that fall under the category that isn’t titled Christian and making them Kingdom. My favorite is Good to Me by Jeremy Zucker. 

There’s nothing like standing in a sea of believers with hands raised, eyes closed and hearts open to the power of God; nothing. There’s also nothing like standing on a busy crowded street with the lost singing through headphone static, spreading the love of God. 

I love airports, like a lot. I love putting in my headphones when I walk to my terminal or baggage claim and blasting Testify by NEEDTOBREATHE, walking to the beat, playing air drums as I head to my destination. 

I love being connected to God in the simple, everyday. Working out, journaling, walking to a destination, just living my everyday life with Him always being my center. 

I just learned what Spotify was at launch in August. I had a squad-mate teach me in the Atlanta airport, he was so patient with me, technology is not my friend. The first thing I did was create a playlist of favorites, then I made one with throwbacks, and then a collection of songs that weren’t Kingdom but I made them Kingdom anyway. I play these collections to fall asleep, shower, get ready for my day, when I journal, workout; anything. 

Lately I have been fasting all music that isn’t music created to worship Papa and it has been so fulfilling, like a breath of fresh air. I find love and divine intentionality when I incorrupt Him into my every moment. 

The point of this? Maybe there isn’t a point. Maybe there isn’t some divine why to my words this morning. Maybe it’s supposed to me just fan girling over my Husband, the Love of My Life, my Papa. 

Maybe the point is to remember He’s with us in every single moment when we create a space to welcome Him. Maybe it’s to be desperate, desperate to spend each and every moment we can with Him. 

I want to be so desperate in my pursuit of Him. 

I love you. 

Kenz

 

My current faves: 

Extravagant by Bethel 

Testify by NEEDTOBREATHE

Set A Fire by Jesus Culture 

Yes I Will by Vertical Worship

Another in the Fire by Hillsong UNITED

2 Comments

  1. I LOVE worship music so much! Every song and worship group you mentioned are my favorite…keep creating a SPACE for the Father, because you are right, your mindset will be different when you fill your space with HIM. Love you!

Comments are closed.